Monday, November 18, 2013
It's hard for those of us Children with renegade farhets to understand the complexity of their love. my dad committed suicide when I was 7. I spent a lifetime trying to understand why he left. I felt abandoned, unloved. He had a choice I thought, to man up. To be a dad. But then I realized that he didn't really have that choice. Spiritually, he was broken. Unable to get up. Since then I've worked to reach the lost and broken and I've been there myself. All I can do is try to man up. To realize God is my father and my dad on earth really struggled. I know yours did too but man, he loved you and your brother!Benjamin.Thats what he always called you.Your dad was so cool.We talked just about everyday about his life.He had some brilliant sayings; one of my favorites is; The records playing backwards. He was a great writer, and he talked about you often.
